I've never felt so distraught and sorry for myself before. I can't help but to have feelings of HATE, and then start to feel bad that I hated, and then start to feel bad for myself because of the situation I'm in. I am not a victim. If I truly believed in what I speak, I should brush this off my shoulder and move on, unaffected through my lack of emotions.
But I can't help but feel like complete shit. Never have I felt so betrayed. I've never not-NOT-cared this much before. I really feel like I've been done wrong in this situation.
And then I think of times where I've done other people wrong...
Definitely can't victimize myself.
Yeah but I've never hated other people because of ONE person before. This is a first. I'll get over it. Don't you just hate it when you know someone so well, and that you are probably the one person that knows this person best? Not because you're a psycho, but because no one else really knows. No one knows the ugliness inside. Yeah, not saying I do, but definitely sucks to be in that position.
Get me OUT!
2 comments:
Charles!
Hiiiii =]]
Feel Better man, I don't know what you're going through but you'll get through it. I feel so much better after venting on my blog haha. Hopefully you feel a lil more shyuhnae after writing this post too =]. Miss you Buddy!!! Come visit KOREA after you graduate!!
doode. i feel ya so much on this!! i start judging people when i think, "how can they be friends with _____? they're trash!" when you know the TRUTH. and then i get in a deep, ugly pit.
then i realize that i shouldn't be around trash. and that sometimes i can be it too.
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